Evan is my favorite little dude at church. So when I found out we were both dressing 50's Style for Halloween, I had to take a picture with him. Love that boy! Check out his shoes! He's going to be a famous drummer one day by the way!
Friday, October 31, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
Too much, too little!
Is is just me or does there never seem to be enough days in the fall? Seems like most of the year I am looking for things to do, then the fall and holiday season start and there are never enough days. Why does everything pile up in October, November and December. And by that I don't just mean holiday stuff, I mean life stuff, usually fun stuff: concerts, games, meetings, events, etc. etc. etc. What is everyone else doing the rest of the year?
Friday, October 24, 2008
Week One and New Insights
So this morning I completed week 1 of boot camp. Today seemed a little easier than the other 2 days. Don't know if I'm more in shape or if Cody took it easy on us.
I am disappointed in my mood this morning though. I woke up fine then checked my voice mail and was upset by the message I got. It really brought me down. Which leads me to my next point or question or rambling.
Co-dependency is my newest topic of conversation with God. Mostly because I am guilty of it. This is our (me and God's) ongoing issue at the moment. I will say this. I am co-dependent in that I should not let other people's drama or problems affect my mood, like it did this morning, but I really feel like God and I had a break-through in what is and what isn't co-dependency.
Night before last I was praying about this. Mostly just rambling to Him that I hate it that people try to make me feel bad for caring about what goes on in the lives of the people I love. And some new thoughts came to me. Yes, I should not let their actions affect my life but it is ok to care. Here's the thing, it hurts my heart when people I love are hurting and it fills me with joy when people I love are happy. To me that is normal. I am an emotional person, that is the way God wired me. And people (by that I mean people who are extremely close to me) tell me that is not a good thing. But after the other night, I do not agree. They try to tell me that I shouldn't feel emotions about the lives of the people I love. But think about this. Can you really love someone (agape love) and not care about them? That is essentially what people are telling me to do. If you love someone, you should care about them. Look at God for example. He loves me. He hurts for me when I hurt and He's happy for me when I'm happy, or so I've always been taught. The creator of the universe sits on His throne and guess what, He cares about what's happening in my life. He does not sit there unattached emotionally from what is going on. He loves me and because of that, He cares. Now, being perfect and all, He does not let what happens in my life affect His but He does care. There's the line that I have trouble with and am learning about.
So that break-through really helped me personally but I got to wondering about why people try to make me think otherwise. Could it be that to "love" and not care is really just about self-protection? A way to isolate yourself from being hurt by other people? I really don't have that answer, it's really just more a thought to ponder. But I do know this: I care about the people I love and that's ok. Now I just need to work on that line... Pray for me :)
I am disappointed in my mood this morning though. I woke up fine then checked my voice mail and was upset by the message I got. It really brought me down. Which leads me to my next point or question or rambling.
Co-dependency is my newest topic of conversation with God. Mostly because I am guilty of it. This is our (me and God's) ongoing issue at the moment. I will say this. I am co-dependent in that I should not let other people's drama or problems affect my mood, like it did this morning, but I really feel like God and I had a break-through in what is and what isn't co-dependency.
Night before last I was praying about this. Mostly just rambling to Him that I hate it that people try to make me feel bad for caring about what goes on in the lives of the people I love. And some new thoughts came to me. Yes, I should not let their actions affect my life but it is ok to care. Here's the thing, it hurts my heart when people I love are hurting and it fills me with joy when people I love are happy. To me that is normal. I am an emotional person, that is the way God wired me. And people (by that I mean people who are extremely close to me) tell me that is not a good thing. But after the other night, I do not agree. They try to tell me that I shouldn't feel emotions about the lives of the people I love. But think about this. Can you really love someone (agape love) and not care about them? That is essentially what people are telling me to do. If you love someone, you should care about them. Look at God for example. He loves me. He hurts for me when I hurt and He's happy for me when I'm happy, or so I've always been taught. The creator of the universe sits on His throne and guess what, He cares about what's happening in my life. He does not sit there unattached emotionally from what is going on. He loves me and because of that, He cares. Now, being perfect and all, He does not let what happens in my life affect His but He does care. There's the line that I have trouble with and am learning about.
So that break-through really helped me personally but I got to wondering about why people try to make me think otherwise. Could it be that to "love" and not care is really just about self-protection? A way to isolate yourself from being hurt by other people? I really don't have that answer, it's really just more a thought to ponder. But I do know this: I care about the people I love and that's ok. Now I just need to work on that line... Pray for me :)
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
You can do it...
I am currently experimenting with fonts to see which one looks best on my page. It's an annoying OCD thing I have when it comes to graphics! But anyway.
So I learned this week that with enough prayer and a little want to, you can do things you never thought you could. Physically I have been in a pit so I decided to sign up for a 4 week boot camp with some friends. If you know me, you know that I am in NO WAY athletically gifted. But I needed a jump start to get myself back on track at the gym. I figured I could force myself to do it but the BIG problem is that the class is at 5:00 AM, yes, that's AM. I am NOT a morning person. I like to stay up late and sleep late. But I decided that if God could wake me up at 5:00 am on Sundays to work at church, He could wake me up at 4:15 am to get my temple in shape. And surprise, surprise, surprise, HE HAS! While I realize I may be jumping the gun with this declaration (I've only done 2 days so far) what is amazing is that I am not just awake but that I am actually speaking and civil to people this early. That is a major change for me. Did I mention that I am NOT a morning person! While I cannot say the class is easy, I am doing it and for the most part still walking when it's over (may look a little funny doing it but I am). So there you have it, lesson for the day: Give it to God and He will deliver!
So I learned this week that with enough prayer and a little want to, you can do things you never thought you could. Physically I have been in a pit so I decided to sign up for a 4 week boot camp with some friends. If you know me, you know that I am in NO WAY athletically gifted. But I needed a jump start to get myself back on track at the gym. I figured I could force myself to do it but the BIG problem is that the class is at 5:00 AM, yes, that's AM. I am NOT a morning person. I like to stay up late and sleep late. But I decided that if God could wake me up at 5:00 am on Sundays to work at church, He could wake me up at 4:15 am to get my temple in shape. And surprise, surprise, surprise, HE HAS! While I realize I may be jumping the gun with this declaration (I've only done 2 days so far) what is amazing is that I am not just awake but that I am actually speaking and civil to people this early. That is a major change for me. Did I mention that I am NOT a morning person! While I cannot say the class is easy, I am doing it and for the most part still walking when it's over (may look a little funny doing it but I am). So there you have it, lesson for the day: Give it to God and He will deliver!
Life or Something Like it!
So I convinced my friend Leah to start a blog. She is going to Peru for 3 years to be a missionary and I told her this would be the best way to keep people informed. Then I had to sign up for an account to follow her blog so I decided to start my own. I've actually been considering it for sometime now. I read on a friend's blog that she thought it was important to leave a leagacy for her family. While I totally agree with that, I don't know if I have anything near important enough to say that would be considered leaving a legacy but I do know that we can all help each other make it through this journey here on earth by sharing experiences. So beware, this probably will just be me rambling about my life and times but I hope that somewhere in the middle of all the jibberish you may find something to help you through this life (or something like it).
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